Looking at the people on my msn, and hearing the stories dear has told me about srrr, i really miss canoepolo and my team mates and the good workout the sport gives me. I haven't been going down because i wasn't playing for the competition as i have been forgotten/ostracised/looked down upon by my team after i had entered army, or at least that's how i feel when i found out i wasn't part of their team.

According to some of them i haven't been down for enough trainings, i don't deny that but i see people who got into the team who have been down for lesser trainings, what they do not understand that as a trainee, my time is not as flexible as those other alumni who are able to head down so often. What ever the case i'll try to be back for trainings subsequently after the srrr. Hopefully i am still welcomed. I see my ex team mates improving, bonding creating memories, going out as a team, something i was always trying to get them to do but failed. I guess that's the case because i don't have a batch of team mates to really call my own, to graduate together, to learn all the basics and improve together.

2005, has brought me many painful memories and experiences but 2006 shall be my year. Carpe Diam!