I'm now posted to combat engineers, at nee soon camp. Just outside my house hehe....

Sad to say i missed another chance to get into OCS although i was platoon best and had already went to the OCS crossover interview. I guess my fate in army just sucks real bad. I cried so hard when i heard i didnt get in, so embarrasing. But well, life deals cards to you that sometimes isn't a full house but we continue to play the game as best as we can, if you cant win maybe just try to avoid being the biggest loser.

Thanks deare for supporting and comforting me. And thanks to my SGT DEREK, the strictest instructor who has the highest standards for believing in me and encouraging me when you were barking at the others, sad to say i let you down. I cant help but question my own abilities and personality, i feel shaky and unsure. Why is army doing this to me, it is supposed to be helping me but instead it makes me question myself.

It sucks more when everyone in your platoon thinks you will get in but don't, kinda feels like im letting them down. I appreciate everyone who try to encourage and console me.