3 years of my life with lots of hard work and effort spent in this club, 1 year of being captain spilling my guts out trying to be the best i can be to offer to my team. It's all coming to an end. But i feel empty, i feel no 1 appreciates my efforts, no 1 notices my presence, im not the most flashy player, but i feel im good in certain ways. No one ever realises me in ANY way. I ask myself was all that i have given up for this sport, for this club, for this team worth it? My term has ended and no one has ever told me "edward thanks for leading the team the past year! you've been doing a great job!" no1. Maybe it's just Singaporeans, maybe i just suck. But who's to say? I don't hear it and i am sure as hell feeling like i wasted my 3 years, not getting a medal, not acheiving anything. Even if i did achieve, does anyone notice? To think my catch phrase is to paddle harder. I think i should just ram harder into the wall.